LARGE BREASTS, ARE YOU A FREAK?

Wednesday

LARGE BREASTS, ARE YOU A FREAK?

I walked into a store the other day and caught one clerk saying to another "check this out", while pointing at me. They both laughed and when I looked they tried to hide it.

I admit it bothered me a little, like an itch you can't quite reach. Maybe I'm just used to such rude behavior from people, which in itself is a shame. I don't dwell on it usually and let it just roll off my back, but I want to tell you of one instance where I didn't.

For some reason on this particular day, years ago, I was feeling down and a bit vulnerable. I lived in an apartment complex and had new neighbors moving in next door. I happened to be going to my car in the parking lot and a woman and two men were standing at a moving van, taking a break and looking in my direction.

As I got close to them one said something to the other two in a different language and they all looked at me and busted out laughing. I'm sure they thought they were in the clear because I couldn't understand them, but you know when you are being talked about.

I felt so humiliated and hurt, especially because I was going to approach them and say hello and welcome. I turned around, walked back to my apartment and began sobbing uncontrollably. I was hysterical and went and sat on my closet floor because I didn't want my family to see me in such a state.

Now obviously I realize I was feeling bad to begin with, but that was the straw that broke the camels back. I felt so worthless and stupid. I cried for an hour or so till I got it all out, and went on with my life.

I am not a freak. I am not the object of your jokes. I know that there will always be people you don't like, or are different enough to grab your attention, but for god sakes you don't have to make it obvious, and you don't have to be rude. Think about that next time you are in a similar situation. Even freaks have feelings.